It's strange how grief works and what sparks my waterworks. Alpena has been hit with a major ice storm, even the power in the city is out. Turning Brook shared this update and I could just imagine Dad being out there holding your hand, making sure you were covered up and tucked into your recliner. … Continue reading Power outage →

It's been a long month, Mom. All the imperative to do things have been completed, at least the first round imperative things. Dad is lost, as we knew would be the case. It's just mostly sad with moments of meh and a glimpse or two of joy. I noticed this a while back, but it's … Continue reading One month and the  We →

Every Christmas picture throughout your time here on Earth has a picture of you with an Advent wreath. And I inherited them. This one is my favorite. We put it out this year and promptly upon lighting the joy candle Andrew kicked his foot up and knocked the candle over onto the doily you had … Continue reading What to do with a half dozen Advent wreaths? →

There's so many calls you have to make when somebody passes away. I'm glad my dad's letting me do some of this because it is pretty gut-wrenching. I'm finding that you're met with kindness and compassion or irreverence. The compassion make me cry and the perceived irreverence kinda pisses me off. I finished all the … Continue reading All the calls →

Print by Lucyclaireillustrations "When I go,don’t learn to live without me,just learn to live with my love,in a different way.And if you need to see me,close your eyes,or look in your shadow,when the sun shines,I’m there.Sit with me in the quiet and you will know,that I did not leave.There is no leaving when a soul … Continue reading Be open to the moments →

If you haven't snoozed or unfollowed me already, and if you you'd rather not hear about my grief journey, this might be the time to hit snooze or unfollow. Of all the tragic things, losing my mom at 94, after a nearly 13-year battle with Alzheimer's, doesn't rank that high on the tragic things scale. … Continue reading Grief →

It happened. You left this World. The hole your passing left is larger than I thought it would be. Still feels surreal, being in this World without a Mom. Here's your eulogy, it came effortlessly and I was honored to write it. I love you, Mom💔 Hi everyone, thank you for being here to celebrate … Continue reading My tribute to you →

Finally asleep You finally got your wisdom teeth out. You were scared going in and emotional coming out. There was nothing I could do to soothe you today and it reminded me of our early months together, when your colic took its toll on all of us. I question why people find this state, under … Continue reading Halloween Wisdom →

One of the many heartbreaks of watching your kids grow up, for me, has been watching our child have zero "no drop" friendships. Each one of these friendship seem to appreciate her only for the bantering they can do with her, her time, her confidence. Don't misunderstand this to read our child doesn't play a … Continue reading No drop →

And in another lifetime you'd be here fixing Clara's pants. You're still here, but not. So I am fixing these pants, with your darning egg Dad let me take home with me a few trips ago. Saturdays are for fixing things that you didn't have time or energy for during the week. I watched you … Continue reading It’s a Saturday →